It has been over a year since I have posted anything and lately I have been thinking a lot about things. I had a beautiful baby girl on March 7th of this year. She will be 7 weeks old in a few days! It has been so amazingly wonderful and so INCREDIBLY hard. Everyone said... going from one to two is so difficult and the first few weeks were really easy. She slept a lot, took well to breast feeding and overall has been a much easier baby than Kaleb was.
Around week two however, things started to get rough. Kaleb started testing anything and everything. Constant fits, back to the 2-3 hour bedtime struggles. My 7 years of college and graduate school have NOTHING on this raising kids! Now don't get me wrong, I love being a mom and I am incredibly thankful for my Babies but man it's hard. I think that us, as moms don't talk about it enough. When people ask you how you are doing they don't want to hear that your lucky if you can shower, or that you are covered in spit up, or poop or some other unknown bodily fluid. They want a simple, end the conversation answer. " We're good! "
One thing that I have been thinking a lot about in this last 7 weeks of chaos is my parenting. Kids have a way of highlighting the parts of your life you aren't good at and need to work on, and maybe that is why it is so frustrating sometimes. They make us feel inadequate. Not on purpose of course but the fact is once you have one thing nailed down they change it up on you. Or maybe, you can't for the life of you figure out how to solve a problem like getting your almost 3 year old to not fight bedtime EVERY night, yep that's me there. We are constantly having to switch up our game and be better. As a parent you are never done. Never done learning, growing, and changing.
I'm not really sure where I am going with this post, I guess just wanted to get it off my chance. Maybe someone who is discouraged will read it and know that they are not the only ones who are struggling.
