This year has been an amazing and yet very difficult one for me too. I received my Masters in teaching,I have had a wonderful baby who will be 1 in a matter of months, man that went fast... and I lost my dad to brain cancer in a very painful process. I have also, throughout this year been learning so much about myself. I have FINALLY decided to dive right in to my weight issues and tackle them head on. I know that this time I WILL loose the weight and keep it off. I am making a lifestyle change not just a diet and for me it is so much more than pounds although I do have a goal in mind. But, more importantly I want to be happy with who I am and healthy.
I think having Kaleb was a catalyst for me because although I did have drugs while giving birth I realized how mentally and physically strong my body was. If I can do that, I can do anything and so my thought process on a lot of things changed. I am starting to realize how strong of a person I am and am learning new things about myself through this process. This isn't just me alone realizing these things. I know that God has opened many doors for me and revealed himself through situations that have happened throughout this last year.
God's ongoing message that has been drilled into my head over and over and over again is that I will take care of you. To trust in him with everything I need and he will provide it. Maybe not in the time frame that I wanted but I have never gone without. I know that through the process of my dad dying I have learning a lot of about Christ, honestly probably more than the last 27 years of my life. It is amazing to me how God reveals himself that way. He truly takes awful things that happen and makes them good. I am starting to become ok with the fact that I am not in control and me worrying about what ever it is, is not going to change it. This is a BIG deal for a control freak like me.
Anyway kind of random thoughts all summed up into one, but I am just reminded on a daily basis of how extremely blessed and taken care of I am and for that I am thankful!
My beautiful girl, you are beginning to see what the rest of us see when we look at you. You are smart, capable, kind, funny, successful and a fabulous mother. I could not be more proud of you nor would I love you more if you were smaller. I don't see your weight when I look at you. I just see you. Beautiful you!
ReplyDeleteEm- Thank you for sharing! You are AMAZING, and I am proud to call you my sister : )
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