What are you worth?

   This last week I went to a women's bible study at church called Hearts at Home. It is so amazing!. The message was about how much God loves us. How no matter what we are going through, dealing with or how low we get his love for us is unmeasurable. It got me thinking.... and I am just being honest here... but I feel like when people look at me they only see this overweight girl and that that trumps all my talents and personality. When they see me with Kaleb they see this beautiful, vivacious little boy and then wonder how he could of come from me. I am not trying to fish for compliments here, this is honestly what I think. I know it is unreasonable and most likely not true because I don't feel this way about any of my overweight friends, yet this is still how my mind works. Anyway the message really resonated with me that it doesn't matter what I look like, or what I do. God loves me, he loves me more than can be measured.

My worth is not measured by my worldly appearance, how much money I have, how well I dress and how great I do at work. My WORTH isn't measured... I am worthy because I am Gods daughter. He made me who I am with the gifts and talents I have to be used the way that I am using them. I don't need a reason to feel worthy. I shouldn't have to prove that to anyone because just being me makes me worthy.  We live in this society where we are all trying to one up each other and we are all never good enough. This is a LIE that the enemy keeps feeding us so that we continue to sin, when all we really need to do is turn to Christ and look at example after example of his unconditional love for us.

This concept is obviously a tough one to follow and I will be working on it for quite sometime. Instead of turning outwards away from Christ when I feel bad about myself, or how much money I have or how fat I am today, I need to turn to to him, let him hold me and love on me.

Psalms 139.14
I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well.