Cast ALL your cares apon me!

  I am currently reading this Amazing and life changing book called "Reshaping it All" by Candace Cameron Bure... yep D.J off of Full House. This book is about her weight loss journey and struggle with food but she mostly talks about her relationship with Christ and how that is directly correlated to her success. I feel like I can't get enough information from this book, I keep soaking it up and then going back and rereading passages because all the information is so obvious but for some reason I didn't get it before. It is funny how you can hear something a million times and then one person words it differently and then you have as Oprah would like to say an " ah ha" moment. Well I have just had one of those!
   I am going to say it.. " I am addicted to food!" I think I always have been, and yes it is kind of embarrassing admitting it but I know it is also important for me to do so. I was stick skinny for most of my life and NEVER had to worry about what I was eating until my late teenage years. But I do remember starting very young being obsessed with food. I was nicknamed the "food Police" at our house because I was always concerned about who was eating what and whether would be enough... especially of the naughty stuff. We never had a lack of food in our house so I am not sure where the obsession came from but I think it was probably my way of controlling something in my life.
   As I got older I became focused on what I was going to have for my next meal and "feasting" as a good friend of mine and I called it. We would stuff ourselves silly and at the time it was wonderful, but I was obviously in severe denial.... so fast forward to about 5 years and 80, yes 80 lbs later. I am like " oh, I got fat!" I wonder how that happened?  Fast forward again to another five years down the line. And although I have lost some of the weight, I am still working on loosing more. I am just now coming to the realization that I cannot do this alone.
   I have not been able to figure out for the life of me why all these years of dieting and exercising and weight loss plans I have never been able to take all of it off and keep it off, but I was missing a huge component. God! Hello, why didn't I see this before. This whole book talks about how we can't do it ourselves. That Satan uses every opportunity to make us feel weak and like failures and for me that is my weight. Every time I have given up because it was too hard or because I didn't see the fruits of my labor I let him win. If I give up every time there is a sign of trouble, I am missing out on the promise he gives us. God states that if I cast all my cares upon him, yes even my temptations with Ice cream and oreo's that  he will not let me fall. So here I am casting this huge struggle in my life Lord, I will not give up or let the enemy tell me I am defeated every time I don't loose a pound or make a mistake. You will be there to guide me and pick me up when I fall because I know I will.

C.S. Lewis wrote :A silly idea is current that Good people do not know what temptation means. This is an obvious lie. Only those who try to resist temptation know how strong it is... A man who gives in to temptation after five minutes simply does not know what it would be been like an hour later. This is why bad people, in one sense, know very little about badness. They have lived a sheltered life by always giving in.